I had heartburn and **** so I took some melatonin tums and I fell asleep for a bit and now I'm up listening to Elton John and Toto. I'm tired but I'm not really in the mood to go back to sleep. I woke up with some weird thoughts about stuff that didn't even happen.

I realized that gut wreching feeling I'd get related to leaving my transference T actually turned into the ulcers. Since I'd get the feeling in the same spot. Man did she mess me up.

I have all these big plans but I can't really do anything about them now.... I'm just waiting until I crash. I have this weird euphroia mixed with fatigue right now. I don't feel impulsive. I'm just fighting sleep mainly.