@Manarinorange
Welcome! Sorry for all the trouble you had with your physical health and the psych system and your sister. Not that having anxiety is great, but it's good your BP is stable. My first psychotic break was when I was 35. Now I seem to get them yearly, around Nov. or Dec. usually.

I see the pdoc next week. I think I'll ask him if I can increase the trazodone.

I hate insomnia.

I fell asleep OK last night, just couldn't STAY asleep. In the past, Seroquel + trazodone was good for a solid 8-9 hr, and usually felt like I could sleep another hour if I didn't need to get up.

On a positive note, I only got a little hyper during the evening and calmed down after taking my meds and reading (yes, reading!!) before I fell asleep. I couldn't read much, only about a chapert, but that is a HUGE improvement. I found that turning off the lamp and reading using a booklight instead settles me down more.

I want to go for a walk, but it's still dark out and only 3:30 AM. Sigh. Really I want to do pilates but H needs to finish sorting his table of junk before I have room again. He finally has to turn in his grant proposal on Wednesday, and after that, hopefully he will have more time. I will be SO glad when he's done with that. Not only is he stressed out, but he is working nonstop all day even on the weekend on it. He only just went to bed now. I feel so bad for him.

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SHYT! I can’t follow Tv this morning again

Agitated again and can’t settle down to do one thing. I hope morning meds will help. I usually take them at 5:30 am as I am an early riser (when I do sleep). Just another 45 min or so to wait.