Obsessing about doing something that is downright cruel to another person.

I DON'T understand. This is NOT me. I don't do this SHYT.

I need to control myself. Took my morning meds half an hour early in the hope that they will help. They haven't yet, don't think they've had time to kick in.

I'm going for my walk once it gets light outside. Hopefully it will get my mind off it. I NEED to get my mind off it.