Oh, my goodness, I have so many things I'm suddenly appreciating today: the walk I took, the feel of being nice & clean after a shower, the smell of my body wash, a nice juicy plum.

This happened to me the last time I came out of mania and psychosis. My senses and appreciation for life just perked up but not in a bad, manicky way. I guess morning meds kicked in!

I hope this means I will have more periods of slowing down, taking life more easily.

And now I have quite the opposite problem of wanting to lose weight but of losing weight too much too fast. I have had quite a reduced appetite while manic and I lost more weight than I intended. This has reared some ED type thinking (UGH! I HATE that!) I have been using CBT techniques to work on combating this. I have to remind myself I have to eat a lot more than usual when I walk b/c it throws my metabolism into overdrive. I hope I get my appetite back soon; wow, I NEVER imagined I would say that! I do still want to tone up my muscles, but I do NOT need to see a smaller number on the scale. I need to get rid of the scale; however, pdoc weighs me at every appt. And lately he's been seeing me every week to every 2 weeks. Last time I got rid of a scale, I ran over it with my car. But that was out at my parents house in the country where there is hardly any traffic.