That's whar we're here for, to listen, be there for you!!! Sex isn't something "EVERYBODY ELSE KNOWS AND HAS..." Read over the posts in this thread, they're full of questions, doubts, insecurities, sex is definately NOT some 'club' that everyone else belongs too.....again this kind of thing takes TIME and lots of it....kissing is a part of sex and similiar to it and I read you LOVED to kiss her!! You're not as cold as you think.....you also write about sharing a bed with her and the contact you love, you're half way there!! You write you feel you failed an exam- life is a series of many different growing tests I use the term test as it has less pressure than exam.......fail one then there's the make up test where the teacher lets you average the 2 scores right