I am so sorry for your loss and that people are fighting. That happened after my MIL died. OMG, the kindest person you could imagine and just all this family turning against each other.

I have a grandmother who is 91, and I know I've had her a lot longer than most, but I still dread the day she won't be here any longer and how I'll cope with it.

Sometimes I get so sad, I just can't even cry.

I'm sorry you are feeling depressed. Please consider reaching out to your T. It is a very stressful time for you. You need to by gentle on yourself and take care of yourself.