@Blueberrybook caffeine can occasionally cause me to have hypomanic symptoms. It doesn't happen enough for me to stop drinking coffee, or other sources of caffeine, though. I'm definitely hooked on the stuff, especially since my chronic fatigue kicked in. I'd drink iced coffee all day every day if I could!

Today was a good day. I had an alright counseling session. My counseling schedule is now set up so I see my trauma therapist once a month and one to help me with emotional regulation/more day to day stuff once a month. Once thing I'm going to work on with her is the high level of fear I have around bipolar disorder and what the symptoms might turn into in the future. TBD if I'll keep the trauma therapist in the mix or take a break from trauma therapy all together. It's SO nice to, after 3 years, be in a place where I'm not having to go to counseling once a week. It's tempting to completely stop going. I just don't want to stop cold turkey though and I think going at least once a month is probably good to help keep bipolar symptoms in check.

In preparation for seeing my pdoc on Monday, I'm cutting back to 2 mg of risperdione (instead of 3) to see how that goes. This way, I have the most accurate information about my. dose needs when I see him. As I type this, I'm realizing that maybe this is why my brain feels on fire this evening though. We'll see-could just be a coincidence.