Thanks, LT.

Yesterday's session wasn't the final in person session until September I 'wanted', if that's even possible.

R asked me how I was doing, and I began to struggle from the get go.

'I am...not going to do this today...' was all I managed before I broke.

Things were complicated by the meeting at work being scheduled for later in the day.

It's been a long time since I've been so soluble.

R said she had a sense that I'm pissed off with her (a real Sherlock moment...) and that she felt she 'held some guilt' because it was her decision, but she had to hold her boundary.

That caused me to dissolve again, and she asked whether she should move closer.

I agreed, and we talked about changing the subject during the time we're working online.

'Is it about being physically alone with those emotions?'

Enter Soluble Lost.

'I'm right here with you.'

I bit back 'You're not allowed to say that while we're working online.'

We talked about her laptop issues, and she confirmed that it's fine.

'I wasn't trying to prepare you for technical difficulties. I felt your prickliness when I said that last week.'

We have agreed to switch to WhatsApp if anything happens.