Thanks, LT.

Sorry for the confusion - I didn't actually say 'You're not allowed to say that when we're online.'

I held my tongue or bit the words back.

The first virtual session is on the 15th of August, and we're switching focus to talk about my experience of disability (not something I envisaged spending therapy time on but feels a hell of a lot safer than delving into Feelings around this new development over whatever technological medium she chooses to use.)

She said I can email if I want to express how I'm feeling grief-wise, but...it's not quite the same.

'We're working at quite a deep level around grief at the moment.'

Yeah, and you're opting out by moving online.

I couldn't speak when she left, because I was busy trying not to break again.