i texted 988 for a while. i needed to talk to someone about how dire i feel. i havent felt so apathetic in a while. its making every part of life diffcult. im watching the olympic games opening. im too afradi to travel that far away from home though id like to. im lucky i have 5 kitty cats to keep me company while husband is at AA meetings all week nights. im alone alot. right now i like it becasuse i can feel like **** and not hide it.