I kinda want to call my CM because of how badly I've been struggling on and off lately (and on right now), but I know it's going to go

Girlll, I've been doing other things when that comes on every day for longer than I want now. I feel like a dam in a hurricane.
So tired too, but like the every noise startles me and I can't sleep tired.

eta: jeez I go on youtube and first recommendation is "**** being sober" by Annika Wells.