Finally I couldn't stand it and went walking in the rain, which mostly stopped by the time I finished my walk. I really need to work on this. I don't have a T, gave up on therapy years ago after trying at least a dozen T's.

And some T's, I'd get thru my history and they're like yes, I definitely can help you with bipolar, with OCD, with anxiety & panic attacks, oh wait, you have a history of an ED? Sorry, I can't help you even though you recovered 20 yr. ago.

I just started calling T's finally and so many rejected me with an ED past or there were insurance issues, and I finally gave up. I never did click with any of the T's who would see me, and it's just too much to deal with, makes me feel like a freak b/c I get rejected by a lot of T's. Anyone else have this problem, or is it a regional thing?