I dunno why, but my irritability had increased over the last 2 months or so. I don't remember the last time I got angry except today. Anyway, I jsut got really annoyed today and smashed a glass. I was gunna cut to, but I just got out the house before I could. And I went and sat in ta tree for a bit, where I could watch people who couldn't see me.

And I didn't self harm, so maybe I should be glad about that, Too tired to be glad. I am the only person I know who can drink loads of caffiene and still not need to move more than typing.

I wish I wasn't so emotionless as much. I've been more and more emotionless recently than I have been sad, which in a way is good because I don't feel sad... but maybe thats why I've been getting irritable.

I'm so tired.

I think I'll go in for an anemia test. I've heard that anemia can cause depression and tiredness. You never know, Iron might be my cure all :S

Maybe that's why I like computers and the internet. little movement requires, and because I'm slightly depersonalized, it has more to do with my mind than my body. Plus it's not really interacting with people, but more interesting than lying on my bed doing nothing for days.

If I didn't have a computer in my room though, it might be a different story.

Sometimes singing (Badly in my case ^^) helps. Sometimes.

But I'll keep you updated.