hi there. my name is jonny i am 19 and i live in ireland. since about february my life has been turned inside out by panic attacks. normally i could go out at the weekends and have a drink with my friends and do every thing without a care in the world. one night i was having a drink at my friends and all of a sudden i had a panic attack but at this stage i didnt know what was happening. it completely freaked me out and i havent touched alcohol since which i miss by the way. when the first attack happened i was upset for a few hours but feel asleep, i woke up the next morning and i wasnt quite aure what had happened but i felt right as rain. i was ok all the next day until i came in from being out driving on my motor bike and something jus felt a bit weird but i couldnt put my finger on it. then the night beforeall came back to me what happened and scared me again and there it was happening again to me. since then i have fought through it continuing to go to work. i lost over two stonne in weight jus worrying because i thought i was losing my mind. for some reason i seem to get visual disturbances eg like everything isnt reall and i cant focus on anything. not sure if this is common but anyone i have talked to about it hasnt encountered that problem. i dont get short of breathes but i just think im going to drop dead. im now on propranolol and its seems to be working .but i dont want to be like this the rest of my life. i just thought maybe coming to a forum like this and sharing my problem might help me over come it. i am alot better now but i cant even go out with my friends to clubs or anything its so annoying. i dont know if i am creating them barriers or what but im just scared of triggering it of again. even typing about it right now is making me feel slightly odd. thanks for listening or reading