This wanting to be special to our T's has me thinking. For me, I know I wanted to be special to L. Wanted to be her favorite client. Wished I were her only client. All of the things. I think it came from when I was younger and first started writing poems/stories in gradeschool, I so clearly can STILL hear my dad saying "What makes you so special that anyone would want to read what you write?" and other things like that. I absorbed that I was NOT special. So the seed was planted for my adult need to be special.

Also, I've about decided that L has DID or something similar. Looking back I can remember a good handful of sessions where I felt like I was sitting with/talking to somebody else, some 'not-her'. Especially the last 2 sessions in February. Who knows. She used to accuse me of being possessed, so **** her.