Dear T,

I know you. I see you. Fccking hell, man. You said whatever you said about it being hard to have double bipolar/BPD, but what about us folks that have done enough hard drugs that they don't need hard emotions and episodes that make them feel like unbearable suffering is all of life and question that DBT statement that "despite the pain, life is worth living." ?

Dude, I canceled so I can spend the day sipping on the bottle and maybe...idk...but not seeing you again and quiting treatment, sorta.