That is so true! I read some of your recent posts on your website. Hang in there with resisting drugs and alcohol, you are on the right track. I haven't been drunk since 1982, or taken drugs since 1976. A doctor told me once to tolerate emotional discomfort. In the 70s I was hospitalized, and got arrested, but since staying clean, I've been married to my wife for 45 years. We go bicycle riding together, for a healthy hobby. I am somewhat isolated, but have friends we get together with occasionally. If you don't party like other people ,you may not get invited everywhere. Good luck getting your arrangement with your boyfriend the way you like it. Take care!