Well, that went poorly. Started out fairly well, where he seemed compassionate, then declined. He actually chastised me for raising my voice at him at one point. Like "I'm not going to sit here and let you talk to me that way." I very rarely express anger (like, maybe I've raised my voice to him two or three other times). And I don't think it was particularly harsh. More later.

Unsure what I want to do about seeing him more. Maybe I need to take a week and think about it. Yes, I know what the answer should be. I just need time to think it through. (And I'm quite certain R wouldn't be an option.)