Thank you so much for your message
Although I'm not really sure how to confront the ideal image of her, because I don't think I still blindly believe in one. I did rationally analise the situation countless times, and I even try to consciously stop myself from having irrational fantasies about having a partner that involve her. I thought many times about all her traits, positive and negative ones, I can tell she was not the one for me and I even try to control myself to let go of the fantasies that happen in my mind. So why, even though my mind seems well programmed, my subconscious and emotions can't let go of her? I want to let her go, but I just struggle to imagine anyone else being so close to me even if I no longer want her with me as well