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Violetta75 · Aug 02, 2024 at 02:02 PM

I guess I feel like ending this thread, closure for me? He was getting weird in his emails. He had overcome throat cancer years ago when he was staying in Canada. I started thinking nothing is making sense, that's not how he usually is, that's not how he was, making me laugh in emails and texts, saying how he hoped I'd like it there and was finishing up the place.

He emailed me back a couple weeks ago. Said he was near death and the cancer came back. He's passed away. That's what I was thinking, it got to his brain... in a way I wish I had gone to be there for him, but I think he was ok with himself. At least I got a chance to say goodbye, he said I'm not sad, I know I'm going to heaven. I said I know you are going to heaven, I'll be sad but I'll always be grateful for the times we had and how he was there for me after a big breakup and losing my apartment. He spent a lot of time with me just being there and texting, always so witty with jokes....my dad was dying and he drove out to meet him and my family, he said my dad was really likeable guy, and my dad said he really liked him too. I know this probably doesn't matter here, I dont frequent this forum much anymore. But today my younger son who has so many problems mentally with what he's gone through, has finally made it into a shelter here that helps young people find long term housing, they have counselors, I so hope he finds the help he needs there. It's very hard here to find any shelter or affordable housing.

There are other affordable places in that country I could stay at a bit in the winters here and I might or might not do that. It does help depression, the sun seems so much brighter and walking around on a beach is really good for depression. Time will tell. Its summer so I'll make the best of things here and I'm used to enduring winters. Just wanted to make an end to this, thanks.