thanks for the reply. i was beginning to wonder if anyone was out there. i am feeling much better today. i have made a list of what is important to me & what needs to be done, so i don't feel so overwhelmed. i also had a very long, frank discussion with my husband & shared my "quiz" results with him. i think for the first time he realized how serious this has become & that i don't just have the "blues". he is helping me make plans to get better & have hope that tomorrow will be a better day. i must remember to look forward & not backwards;learn from mistakes, but not to dwell on them. i know i have a long ways to go & many more bad days to come. but the sun is shining today & it has been a much better day than yesterday, so i have hope, and sometimes that is enough to get us through the day. thanks for listening. i hope someone else has a better day tomorrow.