@MuddyBoots
If sometimes you're safe, and sometimes you're not, then you can't really say you'll stay safe in the near future, you know? You need to just tell your care team you do not feel safe b/c from your post it does not sound as if you trust yourself to STAY safe.

You said earlier in a post that sometimes you think you want help, and I think it's high time you listen to that part of yourself.

Can your mom not see that you need help right now?

Everyone wants you to get the help that you need.