She can’t and I just talked to my CM and now I’ve decided to never talk to anyone on my useless shytty treatment team that probably fking hates me. So no, I don’t want help. Not when I’m freaking out about lights and she just says to go for a walk or play piano or some shyt. THAT DOESNT STOP THE LIGHTS!!! And THEY WONT SHUT UP!!!!

I am safe FROM MYSELF. They do not give a damn if you’re going to stop breathing under water. Fking hospitals don’t care either, but there’s no reason for me to go any way because I’m not going to kill myself and I’m not going to kill anyone else.

I’m gonna duct tape my mouth shut.