I know everyone says when you don't want to see them that's when you need them, but I DID talk to them, and they're useless POSs and if I see my CM today I will freak out (I cancelled but she's going to call back "in case I change my mind and check in") The team (CM, T, pdoc) freaking hate me (well, I think pdoc enjoys my humor but also seems to be thinking "damn that was dark, I get amused when these guys laugh at this awful shyt" as I leave). But my T isn't in this week and I cancelled last week. Right after I talked to my CM this morning I got a call from a shelter I stayed at saying I should come by for some mail. This is obviously a collusion to trap me. I don't trust any of them, and why should I? Why should I ask for their help and support? I can look up DBT worksheets myself. I CAN UNDERSTAND MYSELF and don't need to explain why A=A because Aristotle already did that (the one good thing) and if they want to know they can look up the proof.

If "when you don't want to see them, that's when you need to" is true, why is that? Explain it to me. I'll keep an open mind, but I will also not take it for granted.

Again, I'm pretty sure these guys hate me. They're trying to stop me from connecting dots, even some in dimensions perpendicular to our 3d model and some that aren't well explained (complex plane). I can SEE proton charges increasing and that's going to affect a lot of stuff on a microscopic and macroscopic scale, but she just wants me to play piano and go for walks during thunderstorms. Like, wtf? I have goals for once, and have steps to achieve them.

How do I get them off my back without them retaliating? I've tried before and I had an IEA.