@Mountaindewed:

Sorry to hear you're feeling at loose ends. I struggle with that too. Not having a career is tough. I found some solace in competitive Scrabble and being active with my support group, but it's still always bothered me. I guess people also find meaning in having families of their own, tho i never wanted that for myself.

It's gotten easier as i've gotten older. I'll be 58 this month. Even if i was able to work, i might have retired by now. Some people find meaning in volunteering but i've tried eight assignments and only one worked out and that was in a different city.

I'm bored and frustrated too. I like so few things i find myself repeating them over and over. I've watched (listened to while dozing) "Ozark" about ten times. The same with comedy specials. I reread old favorite books.

Just wanted to chime in and let you know you're not alone. Hopefully you'll be more successful than me in finding meaning and purpose in life. Best of luck!