I am annoyingly shaky today. It's like I slept last night and SOMEONE (we all know who) tried keeping me knocked out with a bat, except my bat is in my trunk, but we have other objects. Wasn't a crowbar I don't think, I think that would wake me up or I'd still be out. Drugged? I emailed a bunch of universities with good physics programs. Last night was wild, but no one got hurt (except emotionally, but the more my mom avoids me the better). I hate how BO'S SUFFERING and him seeing the vet for that has to be compatatble with HER TIME. wtf? I'll take him myself if you don't give a shyt. She wants a fight before she attempts murder. I'LL FKING FIGHT!!!@!!@! Last night someone who works with my CM called and said she has time later this week. I didn't answer because I know everyone that calls to meet up is luring me in. They use "help" like it's a nightcrawler and they KNOW if I were a fish I'd be a rainbow trout, just like if I were a purebreed dog I'd be a husky. We all know if I were a dog I'd be one of those half eastern wolves half coyote guys in Maine. I'll eat some motherfking deer and apples. Shyt, I already do. I AM A WILD MAINE DOG!

Connect every point in an amount of matter and you get a solid. A REAL solid. None of this fake friction division stuff. But I'll save the rest of this brilliance for my notebook. I found my old engineering notebook. You could tell I was a genius that half assed everything and now look at me. I found my element (punny!)

Seeing everything adapt to the proton changes is weird, man. Anyone else see it?

@Nammu I'm starting to tolerate stability too now. I feel like I only have it because I do not have any meaningful connection to anyone irl and that sucks, but maybe when I find people that are healthy for me and I'll be able to be healthy for them.