I am SO fcking cynical and depressed and grumpy and irritable right now. I caved and bought an ecig and feel like a hopeless loser nicotine junkie. I'm furious at Husband for not taking me to see Sleep Token when they were playing in Chicago. In fact, I DESTROYED him about it yesterday. Daughter and I got into an ecig fight that escalated into her screaming at me, "I'M DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!!!!!" and me screaming back, "I DON'T FCKING CARE!!!!!" Ugh. Awful. We made up, but still.

I don't know what's wrong with me! I'm having PMS symptoms and my period is almost three weeks away! My sleep has also become erratic and I'm not having any sort of episode. I hate getting old. I hate having pre-menopausal symptoms. I HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. This is almost worse than going through puberty! Well, from what I can remember anyway. I'm emotional and moody and still crying about EVERYTHING. And my birthday is on Monday and I'm NOT happy.

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