Alllllright, I just did out of curiosity. I should probably not drink. I don't think I've even had lemon peppers can I just say thank you for motivating me to look back (even without intent)? I may work better with treatment team now than I have the past month or so. I get quite out of it clearly, and I know I'm still in and out of it.

Glad you're feeling good about getting off that Li

I still think that person I was "posting for" for lack of better wording, is watching every move I make though. I realize this sounds delusional, and some of my delusions I can think my way into knowing they're not real but still feel they're true so it's a bit easier not to get as upset, but this is not one of those, and I most certain know I'm typing this, and that in itself makes me think it's real because every objective fact I have doubts over because who tf knows if our brain actually knows and is capable of discovering and following an impeccable logical sequence. Yes, it has been proven that A=A but it has been proven by a human mind so is it really? Maybe the movement of the universe prohibits there being more than one solid thing at any given moment and everything is always in flux...and when I mean everything I mean EVERYTHING. My backpack next to me? "Hasn't changed" or moved or anything from my perspective, but is it the same? I'll still call it my backpack and won't say it's moved, but is that right beyond practicality?