I'm totally the having repressed it and feeling disgust at others pain. I'm also in what a doctor told me, somatic pain. It's why I feel like a huge chunk of my back of the head is missing and why I feel pain there all the time. If I would've lived in a safe place, of my own, no strings attached, and, if I would've afforded therapy, I would've been doing somatic experiencing therapy. Alas, I'm broke, homeless, living in an unsafe shelter, and on a disability allowance that allows me to just eat and buy the bare minimum necessities. We live in oppressive systems concerned solely with power and not people well-being. How else would abuse happen in a society if it wasn't happening in all its strata?