My therapist told me to take breaks with her when I get overloaded with skills work or feel like trying to talk will be more stressful than productive. She cancels a bit on me too and she comes up with stuff like "something came up" or "I have a meeting" and whatever, but sometimes I feel like it's because she needs a break from me, or is testing my abandonment fears/if I spiral, maybe it's her way of seeing if there's any transference (I've realized there totally is), or knows I'm not in a space anything will be helpful.

But yeah, therapy is exhausting. It's not always about taking their word or showing up all the time, but figuring out for yourself how to take advantage of another person's perspective on things you can talk about supposedly without judgment. It's his/her job, but it's your life. They don't find any solutions, but they're supposed to guide you into whatever is your best path and your gut instinct should tell you if the T is spewing shyt or is genuinely (going to be) helpful. Even if he/she is spewing bull, that can be used as "hey, I realize when someone else says it, I have something to think about and use my own judgment on."