But I have a pdoc appointment later and it's obvious I need an antipsychotic, but idk which route to take?

-meds that didn't work, but sometimes have tolerable side effects
-meds with side effects that keep me from functioning or make me suicidal
-one of the five meds I haven't tried but are in a class of drugs (FGAs) where every other one has led to akathisia (attempted suicide because of being on Haldol too long/at a dose that actually helped), urinary retention to the point of many catheders, or both.