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Old Aug 14, 2024, 09:11 AM
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Originally Posted by Cantholdmyrage View Post
IÂ’m curious, did your father ever wish he had a son instead, so it must be why he trained you to be more manly so he could see you more as a boy?
I'm not sure if he necessarily wanted a son/was upset about having a daughter instead, but he sure as hell didn't want me to be how he looked at women (stereotypes like being over-emotional, weak, bad at science/math/technology/engineering/construction, etc. easily offended, whatever else was going on in his mind). He tried convincing, maybe even training, me to be sociopathic. Said my handwriting meant I'd either be a lawyer of a serial killer and it was up to me to decide if I wanted money or prison. The idea of having a job that isn't "supposed to be for women" drove him nuts, and now drives me nuts (except maybe nurse, but even that I wouldn't go for because at points I lose any patience and empathy for people).
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"What, are you crazy?"
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