I watched a Netflix comedy special by Tom Papa called "You're Doing Great!" It's about how hard life is and how we are all flawed and it's all okay because we are getting thru it. It was a good message for me to hear.

Otherwise, today was the same as yesterday, and i feel weary. I took a shower -- i guess that was an accomplishment. Listening to music was disappointing this evening. I listened to Eminem's new song "Houdini" several times but it's just hollow rap. I like a really emotional Eminem song called "Spacebound" but i guess it's not typical of his work. He's clever tho.

I don't know why i keep living with such an empty life. I guess i am just living by default. My heart beats, i breathe in and out. It's involuntary. There's nothing i can do about it, so i'll just tolerate it as best i can. Make the minimum effort so i don't get angry when i don't get anything back.