I'm thinking Sky meant slowing down the pace of therapy? Getting used to the pace was an adjustment for me. Now that I'm comfortable there, I love the pace that seemed slow when I started. I used to feel like I didn't 'accomplish' much because I was trying to rush things, and to be a 'good' patient and show results.. instead of just going to session, being there, and letting it go where it goes. I love T's "instructions".. "Say anything."
When I 'interviewed' my T, I asked her about personality disorders because a previous T mentioned one to me. When I asked my T about it, she said "Well, really what ISN'T about personality?" and that really put me at ease. We also arrived at another diagnosis, besides depression and anxiety, and we've discussed it several times. She says she doesn't want me to get hung up on the diagnosis. (She didn't provide the diagnosis, I had been reading and I asked her if she thought it applied. She readily agreed, and had thought for some time that it fit me. Or I fit it?)
Adjustment disorder can mean so many things. And I believe it's probably a nice, broad diagnosis to use to keep the insurance company from bugging her with "Are you done yet?" type queries.
Why not ask her to talk to you about Adjustment disorder and why she thinks it applies to you. I'll bet it will be relieving for you.
The attachment is okay. Hang in there and it will feel better. Instead of panic at the thought of losing her, when you can hang on to the good feelings of therapy, of being there with her, you may begin to feel comforted instead that she is there for you. It feels so good.
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