It suddenly hit me a couple hours ago that this week I have to meet my temporary therapist. And that makes my real therapist being gone feel very real. I don't want to do the temporary thing but I don't think I'd do well with 6 weeks of nothing. Her bio on the website sounds nice enough. It doesn't say she has a lot of experience with bipolar. I'm sure she'll be fine, I just miss my real therapist already and this will drive home that I won't see him for 6 weeks. I missed last week but that felt natural since I was supposed to be on vacation. Normally though I'd be on vacation and then the next week see real therapist, not some stranger.

It will be fine. It's only a few sessions. Even if I hate her I can cancel the rest and white knuckle it. But I'm still do anxious I need a PRN to sleep. Until tonight I've been falling asleep early. this week.

Just 6 weeks......