Oh my god. New psychiatrist is TERRIFYING. 😱 I was SO intimidated. I completely shut down. After the appointment my therapist was like, "I've never seen you that way. You were so withdrawn and agreeable." Lol. I feared for my life. Luckily she's just keeping all my meds the same and asked me how I've been the past four weeks, have I had any hallucinations, been paranoid, suicidal, depressed, etc., to which I all answered no.

My therapist had to tell her about my books and the ezine because I'd completely shut down and didn't feel comfortable saying anything. Even the woman's office is intimidating! I'm surprised she doesn't have posters that say "courage" on them plastered to her walls. She was even in a severe pants suit. She's this little Chinese lady that could probably kick my *** even if she was shorter than me by at least two inches (and I'm short!). This woman's expression could melt icicles. I asked her how she was on the way in and she ignored me! I said have a good day on the way out and she gave me a piercing glare.

I'm used to my old psychiatrist. He was the exact opposite of this woman!!! Jesus Christ. He had a MAN BUN if that says anything. I miss him already.

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I guess all I need this lady for is for someone to prescribe my meds for me. And she refilled all of them and told me to see her again in four weeks. Luckily I couldn't get in until October 7th. Whew. I told her multiple times that 100mg of seroquel doesn't make me sleepy and I've just been taking the prn during the day if I'm freaking out, and she kept on saying, "That helps with sleep. You're supposed to take that at night before bed." It was like talking to a boulder!! I should have told her I took 100mg of seroquel before my appointment with her and obviously wasn't tired! Talking to her is going to be IMPOSSIBLE.

Whatever. At least she didn't take me off diazepam.