You know PInk, if there is anything I have learned in my meagre life it is that nothing stays the same, and I mean NOTHING. As we grow and change our experiences grow and change. It's why marriages require so much work, if you want them to last over the years.

Here I was living a happy middle class life and BAM, life inruded. My parents both died suddenly and young, and two of my children got very sick. All of these events conspired to trigger the reliving of my childhood trauma. I am only now getting my feet back on the earth occasionally.

I guess why I am telling you this is because right now you have a lot going on in your life. You graduated, you are beginning your professional life, and you are starting doctoral school in September. Those are HUGE events. And the fact that your are coping with all of these things would mean there is bound to be some fallout in your major interpersonal relationships. So, I guess that would mean with T.

So, for now, maybe benefits of therapy don't outweigh the pain. Maybe that's where the pain is held at this time. As you said, the pain didn't simply disappear because of your accomplishments. Your experience is real and the pain is still there. And because on some level (probably unconscious right now) you do feel safe with T, so it is there that the pain resides, for you to visit and negotiate.

Give yourself a break if you can. Pull out all those things that you used for your inner child, your therapy bear, crayons, pencils and whatever else you have used. Take care of her. Maybe she feels neglected because the adult you has been stealing the show!

Be good to yourself and if you can, let T be good to her.

PS I write this as I am totally stoned on the medications they gave me to go home with after my surgery today. la de da I wax proilfic...........................