Can I make a cheap easy suggestion??
Ear plugs.
My kids were all colicky kids and I was home with them a lot.
A baby’s cries are SUPPOSED to unnerve you and agitate you.
I wore earplugs whenever I was holding them.
I could still hear them but at 1/3 volume
Me being more relaxed made them more relaxed.
If it is the crying that is getting to you, it’s an easy solution.
Then I’d put on the TV with the captions on and dance with my kid until they settled.
RDMercer