Will are you ever not motivated to work out? Sometimes it’s a chore for me but I try to stay consistent because if I skip days, it will be that much harder as mentioned. On those days I do a shorter workout. The gym is air conditioned but I walk there. It’s just a few blocks but feels like walking in the desert it’s so hot. I hate how exercise is touted as a panacea for everything and how it’s supposed to give you energy. It makes me tired which is why I go in the afternoon.

Jane I talk to just one real life person. I’m so sick of the lack of reciprocity or any interest in anything about me or how things are for me. I don’t even make the effort anymore. I’m still open to it as it’s my nature but tired of always having to reach out first. It’s lonely but people aren’t sincere. My only consolation is it happens to other people, as I’ve seen on this site and others.

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