She said furniture is already there. She said that they've been working on decorating since Saturday. I was supposed to see it before anyone. And now it's at least partially set up. I just wanted to be there from the start. This was a hard decision to make and I don't know that I'll ever have this chance again.

I still think I'm going today. If I don't, I'm just squandering that I can see it at least at this stage. But it hurts. I hurt. I just wanted to be included from the very start.