I'm having some serious anxiety. I woke up this way and now it's 2 AM and I can't sleep. The day started with my typical anxieties when things are really hard and it's just been one thing after another. I realized that the scheduling for my temporary therapist has a big hole in it. Whatever, it can probably be fixed and if not I can survive. I know she's on vacation in there but I can't think she'd take 2 weeks at once. I feel that's where I am now, survival mode. The anxiety is making me feel my depression more and it's just one huge cycle I'm scared I'm stuck in for 5 1/2 more weeks. And I do know that's not terribly long but right now it really feels like it is.

I am actually really anxious to see temporary therapist this week. I don't think we're a great match but I do think she maybe can help the anxiety cycle. But that's not until Tuesday.

Tomorrow I have to do a few errands that I put off today because I had a migraine aura. I never had a full-blown migraine but I've felt weird all day and really shouldn't be driving once an aura hits anyway. I need to use some stuff my mom got me to try to get tar off my car. It's white and the tar looks awful on it. Plus it's just not good for the car. And I have to clean the seal on my refrigerator. It's not sealing well and I'm hoping that a scrubbing will fix it. I also have to do laundry. So I have all these things to keep my busy but I'm so anxious it's hard to pick a lane. And it feels like it all needs to be done tomorrow. It doesn't. Anxiety is speaking again.

Anyway I'm going to see if I can read myself to sleep. Just so frustrated with this anxiety.