I've been doing ok since I had my second seroquel dose and had a haldol PRN today, but before then 9and right now, I've been kinda petrified of seeing what I did to physical surroundings and myself. I can get incredibly paranoid and impulsive, and it just feels like each episode is more intense than the last. Last summer I spent almost a week under my bed clutching a knife, and idk what would've happened if someone got close.

I don't want to be another reason people think mental illness=violence when that's not the story. I know it's a matter of staying on top of the meds and recognizing warning signs. but just worried ill lose access to treatment (again)

I will say I am sooooo happy I had that quetiapine increase and took that haldol today. I was FREAKING out on my way to the pharmacy and took like 50 different roads instead of the main road because people kept getting behind me.

But does anyone else worry about stuff they did/might do? I'm probably more of a shytty person than bipolar