I'm so sick of the voice in my head telling me that I'm crazy and stupid.
I'm sick the voice judging me as a ***** every time I take a shower or look at a boy or look at a girl or just do anything in general.
I'm sick of not being able to think without that that voice roaring back and dumping something about violence or sex.
It says. I don't want to.

I try to follow my therapist's advice and push all the bad thoughts away, but something just snaps in the back of my mind and I think about it anyway.
I want to put my brain through a paper shedder, I'd die but at least I wouldn't have to think anymore.
I'm sick of not having control of my thoughts, I just want to be normal and not be on the verge of a panic attack every time something goes slightly wrong.
I don't know what normal is and I don't think I ever will.
I just want it to be over.