Hi, all.

My therapy has been disrupted since mid-June when my therapist announced that she would be working virtually for the month of August.

A couple of weeks after this announcement, I gained some new insight that I really needed to talk to her about.



We had one session to talk about the knowledge I have gained in factual terms, and I anticipated being able to explore my feelings around this in the following session.

She reminded me that I could email in between if anything was left over, and I took her at her word.

Come the next session, she apologised for not replying to my email due to a week of technical difficulties. This included the camera on her laptop not working.

I panicked and got frustrated, which meant that she spent the rest of that session trying to reassure me.

The impact of this new knowledge is such that I cannot discuss it whilst we're working online.

So I feel as though I've basically had a six week break from therapy, even though we've met online during this time.

When we scheduled the virtual sessions, I noticed that the break she envisaged would encompass World Suicide Prevention Day.

It's a triggering day for me, because I only know about it thanks to Steve, and it takes on new significance now that he is gone.

We arranged to resume in-person on WSPD (10th September) and as it gets closer, I'm questioning my decision.

If you have had to rebuild your sense of safety with your therapist after a break...how did that work? What sort of things did you do in session to help?

Thank you for taking the time to read this post.

Best wishes,

Lost