Emily is it possible this woman might be (without knowing it) showing you qualities within herself that you could discover within yourself?
I’m not sure how to best explain but I’ll give you examples from my own experience. There are a few key people who I’ve been fortunate enough to know who’ve had qualities that I’ve been drawn to, and I think they showed me something of what was possible within myself. In that way I developed as a person a little bit more and better for having known them. I’ve felt calmness and serenity simply by being with them and in my case simply by thinking about them I do get that feeling.