Sounds like all three of you are struggling with this incredible loss silently and alone. (((MeltedCrayons ))) I hope you can find a way to break the silence and bring some healing into your home. I haven't been able to talk much about the loss of my mother. For me the pain seemed to fade a way during my 20s, then surfaces and hits me again and again at random.

My advice to you is to try and talk to someone before it gets so buried and tangled up inside that it becomes impossible to get out.

Journaling has help me a lot.

((MeltedCrayons ))