I have a strange problem.i don't want to remember the activities of a day if somebody known or unknown dies on that day, because i keep thinking that that day was not a good for me.i experience very much anxiety in remembering the activities since someone was died on that day.but i don't want to do that i want to remember the activities of that day because those acvities are important for me to remember.but i can't do that

again if i do something repeatedly for some day(for example taking important lesson) and on the final day if somebody known or unknown dies then i even don't want to remember the whole lesson of those days, since sombody died on the final day.i keep thinking final day is the most important. i feel so much anxious in remembering, But i have to remember those activities/things since these are very important for me. so i try to do the same activitity/thing(for example taking lesson)over and over again on another day when i never heard of anybody's death.i feel then only i will be able to remember the whole thing because nobody have died on that day(final day).But i don't want do this repeatation,at the same time i want to remember those activities/things. But i can't,i feel very very anxious.i am feeling hopeless. i don't know this is obsessive compulsive disorder(OCD) or not. I can't cope up with the situation. Plz Plz Help me and how to solve this problem???