My therapist told me I am reassurance seeking and after looking up exactly what that is, I think he's right (he hasn't connected it to OCD but to me it lines up with my other behaviors).
I know what my thoughts are and how absolutely crazy they make me, so I can only imagine that he is tired of the repetition of the same anxieties that I have every single session. I don't necessarily want to censor my thoughts during our sessions because I guess I need to work through them, but I also feel bad because he's having to hear me talk about the same things over and over again and me still not accepting it. I'm starting to feel trapped because a lot of research I've looked at says that therapists should not reinforce reassurance seeking in therapy. But talking to my T decreases my anxiety (even only for a little while, but it still helps) which is connected to reassurance. So now, I feel like I'm going to be anxiety ridden for the rest of my life. I don't know what to do in therapy now and if my anxiety is going to be like this all my life, I'm not going to make it.