Scarlet, could you maybe take a break, rather than ending it all together? Like say you're going to take a month or two off (however long you think), set up a time to meet again, and then if you don't feel you want to meet then, just cancel? That way, you could test out leaving. Though I'm not sure how it would be with the times you generally meet with her--if you need specific times, those could potentially not be available later (which is one thing Dr. T said to me if I were to take a break).

I'm sorry you're struggling so much. I feel you on this. Moving is so hard. And L's pregnancy has made it even more complicated. More hugs to you.