I don't know how to take in what you said about her possible feelings and birth control. Right now, I don't even care about her situation for herself. I know that sounds mean and even cruel, but it's the truth. Right now I'm trying to figure out how I cope and survive this and whether I stay or leave.

Yes, I don't want referrals from her: inside or outside her business. Plus, if I do leave her, I'll need someone who accepts my insurance or is willing to. Like no one in her business accepts insurance, but she's doing it for me. So I'm sure her referrals won't accept my insurance.

And that's a fear about her leave. Who is going to see me AND accept my insurance if it's within her business? G did. But would anyone else?

I'm going to be alone again.